The idea of "home" has been something I've thought about so much over the last few weeks, months even. For a majority of my life I lived at the same tri-level going to the same schools. Home was all I knew. Now, I have many homes. My first new "home" was West Lafayette, Indiana. My second was Florence. Third, (and yes I count it because it was such a moving experience -- no pun intended) Paris. Fourth, New York City. Each home has it own scents, habits, memories, friends, and every home I have made on my own. Building nests of comfort in these cities which I never considered the impact of abandoning each. Unable to tend for these nests while building a new one. How can we abandon these homes? These works of art?
There is a song I first heard so many years ago, I believe shortly after I first moved away from home. The one line which caught my attention was the single line which I could empathize with.
"Maybe home is a thought, not a place; you can move and still be safe."
The idea that my home was a strictly an artistic representation of all feelings which comfort me, comforted me further in a time of misunderstanding. That was all I understood when I first heard this song. I attached this phrase to my memory like a deer tick and ran it through my mind whenever I felt anxious.
But now, since my home has expanded to so many more faces and rooms and cities, I found that this entire song is my anthem.
"I wanna steal from you only you, make room for you." I take what I want from these physical homes, to create a room of my own. As a world traveler, I desire these new boundaries, the expansions.
"I am the thief who leaves it behind: the moon and the window." But as a traveler, I can leave it behind as well. The moon -- the intangibles such as the scents and the memories. The window -- the tangibles such as the actual physical bedrooms I stayed in, the addresses which once belonged to me. I'm the thief who leaves it all behind.
I could go on, but I think you get the point. I'm heading back to NYC to continue mass robberies.
Here's the full song: "Souvenir" by The Duke Spirit YOUTUBE LINK
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